Mother's Day again (2012)

How time flies! Another year has passed and it's Mother's Day again ..... Recollecting all the painful moments we have had for the past two years. Tears still flow and the pain in my heart will never never go away. Stepping into a cafe and staring at a corner table I have had coffee with mom, baking her fav cake, walking pass a shop and picking up a batik blouse that she would have like, driving pass a reservoir she said she has been to ..... I miss her so so much. There have been many regrets in life, plenty of up's and down's. Many told me that one has to look ahead, pick oneself up, move on and never look back. I agree but putting that to action is nevertheless very very tough. Constant reminders to do what one has to do and ought to do and not procrastinate till some other time as time waits no man. I urge all who read this to pick up the phone and call your folks and tell them that you love them if you can't say that to them in person. This will definitely put a smile on their face and make their day brighter! Mom, I love you!

Mother's Day once again (2011)

Another year of Mother's Day without Mom's around.

Mom has been and will always be badly missed!

妈妈，我爱你!

Charmaine's Poem on Hamster - Jan 2011

Sharing a poem Charmaine composed on 24-Jan-11.

As this is her very first attempt (all by herself) + her deco of flowers and leaves, I must say that this is pretty impressive! Well done, Charmaine!

Remembering Mom, Remembering 28-Dec-09 Mon

Death of a loved one is synonymous with devastation. The pain of grief and bereavement seems to deepen as the day passes by.

It cripples inside as if part of me has died inside too. Every day this feeling doesn’t seem to get any better.

It’s mom’s first death anniversary and yet everything seems unreal still as if I cannot totally digest the fact that she is gone, and for a year now.

Somehow, I survived a year but it doesn’t make anything any better. This is painful and cannot be described in words because this very day reminded me of the day that I will never forget for the rest of my life.

I wished I understood the significance of saying “I Love You” and to the matter of fact, saying that personally to my beloved mom. Nothing in life is more important than family – giving the time one deserved, saying things that you want to say because these things just cannot be put off till “some other time.”

Mom, I miss you! I love you!

Till my last breath, you will always be in my heart.

With mom once again

Mom,

Thanks for stepping into my dream.

I am glad that I can hold your hands once again.

It is coming to a year since you passed on.

The family has not come to terms what goes on.

No words can describe the loss.

No words can describe the pain in our heart.

I still long for the day I can be with you again.

I miss you mom! I love you mom!

Recollection - Mom

Pulling out some of mom's pictures - missed her so ....

Happy Mother's Day!

How I envy many others who can celebrate this special occasion
How I dread seeing banners and banners on this occasion
How contradicting!

How I wish I could still offer mom some carnations in person
How I wish I could bake and share a slice of cake with her
And see that special sparkle in her eye and that great warm smile
How I wish I can return to the good old days - have her with everyone else

I know I cannot turn back time
I can only wish for the day to come whereby I can see her again
Mom, I missed you!