Remembering Mom, Remembering 28-Dec-09 Mon

Death of a loved one is synonymous with devastation. The pain of grief and bereavement seems to deepen as the day passes by.

It cripples inside as if part of me has died inside too. Every day this feeling doesn’t seem to get any better.

It’s mom’s first death anniversary and yet everything seems unreal still as if I cannot totally digest the fact that she is gone, and for a year now.

Somehow, I survived a year but it doesn’t make anything any better. This is painful and cannot be described in words because this very day reminded me of the day that I will never forget for the rest of my life.

I wished I understood the significance of saying “I Love You” and to the matter of fact, saying that personally to my beloved mom. Nothing in life is more important than family – giving the time one deserved, saying things that you want to say because these things just cannot be put off till “some other time.”

Mom, I miss you! I love you!

Till my last breath, you will always be in my heart.

With mom once again

Mom,

Thanks for stepping into my dream.

I am glad that I can hold your hands once again.

It is coming to a year since you passed on.

The family has not come to terms what goes on.

No words can describe the loss.

No words can describe the pain in our heart.

I still long for the day I can be with you again.

I miss you mom! I love you mom!

Recollection - Mom

Pulling out some of mom's pictures - missed her so ....

Happy Mother's Day!

How I envy many others who can celebrate this special occasion
How I dread seeing banners and banners on this occasion
How contradicting!

How I wish I could still offer mom some carnations in person
How I wish I could bake and share a slice of cake with her
And see that special sparkle in her eye and that great warm smile
How I wish I can return to the good old days - have her with everyone else

I know I cannot turn back time
I can only wish for the day to come whereby I can see her again
Mom, I missed you!

An interesting quote I heard over the radio yesterday ...

You have not found your special someone if you can live without him;
You have found your special someone if you cannot live without him!

So simple yet so true ....

In memory of my beloved Mother

In memory of my beloved Mother,
Mdm Tan Phuah Eng ……

Sadly missed along life's way,

Quietly remembered every day,

No longer in my life to share,

But in my heart she's always there.

My heart still aches in sadness,

My silent tears still flow,

For what it meant to lose you,

Mother, No one will ever know.

The tears in my eyes I can wipe away,

The ache in my heart will always stay.

Always a smile instead of a frown,

Always a hand when one is down,

Always true, thoughtful and kind,

Wonderful memories she left behind.

No farewell words were spoken,

No time to say goodbye,

You were gone before I knew it,

And only God can tell me why.

It broke my heart to lose you,

But you didn't go alone,

For part of me went with you,

The day God called you home.

Peacefully sleeping, resting at last,

Her weary trials and troubles past,

In silence she suffered, in patience she bore,

Till God called her home to suffer no more.

Always willing to help others,

When herself should be at rest,

She was the kindest of all Mothers,

Now amongst the Heavenly blest.

Keep her Jesus, in Thy keeping,

Until I reach that golden shore,

Then dear Saviour let me have her,

And love her as I did before.

In all the world I shall not find,

A heart so wonderfully kind,

So soft a voice, so sweet a smile,

Inspiration worthwhile;

A sympathy so sure so deep,

A love so beautiful to keep.

Mother, if I could have one lifetime wish (just one wish and one that can really come true), I ask with all my heart for yesterday and you. I miss you and how I wish I can tell you how much I love you! Until the final breath I take, you will be living in my heart.

December 28th, 2009 is remembered and quietly kept. No words are needed and I shall not forget. Although you are now unseen and unheard, you are always so near, so loved, so missed and so very dear.

I love you Mother!

I missed you so much, Mother!